Busy is all my life is anymore

I have been running like crazy lately.  I feel like I dont ever stop anymore.  I am going to school full time and working a crazy amount of hours each week.  I only have 2 days off and that is Sunday and Monday.  I start my days at 8 with class, and go until 6 when I get off of work.  Only to go and do homework and study.  I am happy though.  My life may be me running from 1 thing to another, but I am finally feeling like myself again.  I still have my days I struggle and dont want to do it anymore, but I am happy.  I like where I am.  I'm excited for my opportunity to go to Russia, in 13 weeks!!! I am going to miss my family and everybody else, but it will be a great experience.  I know that it will help a lot in my recovery.  It will be 2 years by the time I come home from Russia, which is still crazy to me.  Everything seems to be changing in my life as the days pass, but I am also ok with that.  I know that everything happens for a reason, and it all happens when it's supposed too.  My life has seemed very rocky to me these last few weeks.  Relationships with friends have been very up and down.  I have wanted to stop dating since I'm going to be leaving soon anyways.  Why get myself attached right before I leave for 5 months.  Well things are seeming to get into a better place.  A good place.  I do have 1 guy I want to date, and he understands I'm leaving, isnt very excited about it, but at the same time is.  So with that only time will really tell what will happen with him.  Not wanting to rush into anything.  Trying to get back to my basics, then I know the Lord will bless me.  I am in need of him guidance in my life everyday.  I dont know what I would do without him and his love.

Job

I had an interview today and I got the job.  I am starting tomorrow.  I am so excited to be able to start my new job.  It is a CNA job, so it was worth the money that I spent to take my CNA class this summer.  I am working for Friends and Family Home Care.  I think it is going to be a great experience. 

Pictures

Josh and I in Wild Animal Park

Josh, Becca, and me in Sea World

This is part of a show at Sea World

California

This past week I spent in California and the weekend before in Mesa Verde on my family reunion. We had such a great time.  I spent the week with my brother and his wife, and we just spent the days having fun.  We went to the Wild Animal Park, Sea World, the beach, and spent 2 days in Disneyland and California Adventure.  I got really tan and burnt some. But it was such a great trip.  Pictures will be coming soon. I got home in time to go on a date, then head to Moscow the next day.  I will spend the week here in Moscow, and will go home to take my state CNA test and spend a few more days with my sister and then start school and the busy life that will come with that this semester.  Not only will I be taking 16 credits, I am hoping to work a ton and make money for Russia.  I got accepted and am going to be spending 5 months in Russia teaching children English.  It will be such a great experience.  Right now I am not scared just crazy excited.  I can't believe the chanes and opportunites that have come to me over this past year.  I know that it will be hard, and I hope that I will have the support from family and friends back at home.  I am taking the spring semester off of school so i can go and serve in Russia. But I believe that it will be worth it in the end.

Summer

I just got done working at the greenhouses. After a great weekend camping and boating and spending time with the family, I moved to Layton, UT for the rest of the summer. I just signed up for a CNA class and that starts on Monday. It will last 2 weeks, but I will be done before the family reunion and San Diego.
I also have already received a letter from my friend Spencer who in on his mission. He is doing great. I already miss him tons, though.
I am excited to be able to spend time with my sister and nephews. We went to the park and played today. It was a lot of fun. Hopefully soon I will be able to go and see everybody in Moscow, I miss them all tons.
I am thinking about study abroad in the Spring. I only have 1 class I will need to take, so I might as well do it in a different country. Have no idea where I want to go or anything like that, but I think it would be a great experience.

Update

So I am not doing that good at keeping this updated. So I started working on the 27th. I love having a job, I forgot how much I love to work. It has made it so I don't have much time to spend time with friends or date, but I think I can get used to that. I gave my Argumentative Speech today, that is so nice to have done with. School is really busy and I cant wait for spring break. I went to the temple the other day with a couple of friends. I love going to the temple. Going to Moscow soon because Matt is going to be getting his endowments out!!! I am so excited for him. he leaves for his mission on May 12. He is going to Paraguay. I am really going to miss him, but am very proud that he choose to go. He is an amazing brother-in-law!

December

This is 2 of my aunts, and my cousin!

My life has been crazy for the past 3 weeks. I have been on the road for most of those weeks. I spent a week in Wisconsin with my stepdad's family. It was great to see everybody there. Christmas was a little hard, but it was still good. Monty and Sue got me tickets to the Humanitarian Bowl for Christmas. That was amazing, it was so much fun being there. The game was great and the VANDALS won! Then I was able to spend a week in Moscow. I missed my friends wedding because the roads were to bad for me to leave the day I needed to leave. It was so good to see everybody up there. I missed everybody so much.

Dance, dance, dance

I had the best time Friday night at the girl ask guy dance. I went with Tyson Gunter. We had dinner then, had the dance afterwords. The food was great, but the dancing was even better. Tyson and I spent the night just laughing and having a good time. After the dance was done, we decided to bring another couple and we went and made smores. Well we didn't have chocolate, so we improvised we used butterfingers and cookie dough instead. Let me tell you, they were the best smores I have ever had. We made the smores on a big spot light that put off heat, which made it that much more fun. I was also freaking out that we were going to get arrested because we were making smores on this light. Don't worry nobody stopped and asked what we were doing. Overall it was just a great night. I was supposed to go to the dance with a boy named Spencer, but he ended up having to work. I wish we could do more dances like that.

New Blog

I am not very good at blogging. But I am going to try harder this time. My life has been really crazy these last few months. In June I lost the love of my life, and now I have to again figure out what I am going to do with my life. I am going to take Morgan's idea and give you a top 10 list on what has been going on in my life over the past few months.

10. Josh passed away on June 6, 2009 after complications from his surgery.
9. After the funeral I moved back to Downey and am now living with my mom again.
8. Started school at ISU in August.
7. Spent an amazing week on the Oregon Coast with Josh's family.
6. Started to date again. (That has been hard to get used to again)
5. Went on my first blind date ever.
4. Am trying to figure out what I am going to go to school in.
3. Spend a lot of my time with Josh and Morgan, because they are the greatest friends to give me a place to stay when I don't want to drive home.
2. Figured out how many people I have in my life that are so amazing, and am so thankful for friends and family.
1. Went to Houston for my brother's wedding. It was the first wedding I have been to since June, and I cried all the way through, but it was amazing because I could feel Josh's arms around me.

I have had the hardest months I have ever had in my life. My life is crazy and it seems so out of my control. The one thing I like is having control in my life, but right now the one thing I can't seem to find. School is going good. I miss my friends in Moscow like crazy, but also know it was and still is the best that I did not move back up there for school. I think that I am doing pretty good with what the Lord has given me. I have an amazing Institute teacher, who I can go talk to about anything when I have questions.